Sunday, October 02, 2005
-yanhui):
CAUTION : SUPER EMO POST, PLS DO NOT READ IF YOU DO NOT WANT IT TO AFFECT YOUR FEELINGS.***Guess everything is starting to go downwards for me. A turning point in my life, perhaps. Family problems, school problems, relationship problems, my own problems.. Starting to pile up on me one by one.
The school is threatening to suspend me if I'm gonna be late again. And if I'm gonna be late again, it makes it 10 times in this semester. And I'm always absenting myself from school without any valid reason, and they claimed that I'm feigning sick. HELLO?! I'm really sick can. So the school kept on calling my parents and telling them that I can prepare to find another school if this goes on.
Like, duh! One more freaking month to my O levels and they want me to find another school? I seriously doubt it lah. But they kept on calling my parents and annoying them. In turn, my parents kept on annoying me and hollering at me about this damn suspension thingy, which might not even happen.
My dad : " Why not just quit school and go ITE lah. Waste time for what? "
ME : " Shut up can. Irritating lah you, why go and believe what the school staff says? They can't fucking suspend me as they wish, O lvls are coming lah, DUH! " - rolled eyes.
My mum : " See? Look at how she's treating us, with no respect at all? We spoiled her too much lah! " - looking at my dad.
My mum : " Hey look, this is OUR house! We have the right to chase you out if you continue to be like this alright. Don't blame me if we turn nasty. If you wanna leave now, we won't bother ok. Just get out if you want to. "
What the fuck.
I will get out of the house if I'm rich and can survive on my own outside. Just wait.
I'm facing tons and tons of troubles now.. Feeling so suffocated and lost. I really hope that he will be there for me, leading me out of this, and stand by me. But..
Emtpy and lonely.
I'm on the verge of breaking down soon. Serious. Why do I have to go through so much obstacles all by myself now? I can't see who is in front of me protecting me now. Where are you when I need you so much..
I'm all alone. By myself. =_(
I'm tired of pretending I'm happy. I'm tired of this facade. I'm sick of trying so hard to be the old yanhui back. I'm really not happy. I don't wanna pretend to be strong anymore. Vulnerable eh.
Sorry guys if you feel emo yourself after reading this. My life is like totally ruined now.
****Fidget in seat*Anyway, met up with chongjie, mingherng, shuntian, edwin, sarah and sharlene ystd night. We went to hougang plaza and played pool. Geez, actually we were supposed to SING and some moron broke his promise, and he should know who he is lah, huh. HOR, chongjie? -winks*Nevermind. Anyway, he showed me his phone and I.. Feel so sad lah. Hee. I kept on bugging him to show me cos he promised me in msn that he will let me see. So he kept on asking for my opinions and I just went : " HAIS... Poor thing. " LOL.So we settle ourselves down at the kopitiam below hougang plaza and talked cok there. Rattled continuously there and I breathed in so much second hand smoke I think I will faint. I was sitting in between mingherng and shuntian and BOTH OF THEM WERE SMOKING AT DA SAME FREAKING TIME. Geeez. I even had to resort to snatching away da cigg when shuntian wanted to smoke like da 3rd time within an hour. Slacked there till 2 plus and we went home aftermath. While walking along da way to flag a cab, they were saying that da way I talked sounds like him. Hahaha. Such a long post.. Shall stop here. IMU* Siggggh.; Te amare para siempre. I really do.-YANHUI):
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friends* 3:15 PM
