Thursday, June 23, 2005
im tired of..da frequent quarrels.da frequent moodswings.da frequent demands.but im sure..we will go thru every obstacles.we can stop quarrelling.accepting each other as da way they are.sigh.i don't know what to do anymore. i abhorred this feeling of being lost. i couldn't see what's in front of me. i wished i could have da power of predicting da future, so that i know who will be da one blocking infront of me from da dangers, what will i be in 10 years, what will we be doing when we get old? could not fathom da feeling of fear. could not comprehend why is da loneliness suddenly revolving around me. could no longer grasp da meaning of love. why is it so complicated? why did everything got so screwed up? why will i get so fking emotional now?
thousands of ''why'' flashed across my mind. desperately in search of a listening ear. i cant seem to type everything out that's in my mind. questions too much, and da answers got none. at this point of time, i guessed da answers probably won't solve everything.
bleeding my colours into one. as if some catapult had fired me. am i stucked in square one?
i've said enough. i don't wanna continue typing and end up getting confused. confused by all da ''whys''. but, thanks sharlene. thanks fer listening yesterday. love you*
-yanhui):
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